Musings

It is a constant struggle to live in the present moment--a struggle even to remember I want it. The past calls me back so frequently and with such haste, stirs emotions that I thought dead, brings pain and a disturbing lack of clarity, though clarity is not mine on a day-to-day basis, regardless.

This is my constant struggle: apathy versus practice, laziness versus discipline, an eye towards now with a healthy sense of the future versus a gaze filled with the past and future with no awareness of where I am, who I am, at this moment.